I will not hold you long. I will get straight to the point. You are very ambiguous and people have different perspectives regarding you. Some think you provide a sense of freedom. They are very happy to have you in their lives. Others, you leave overwhelmed, depressed, and suicidal. I would like to know more about you.
You are always on the scene. It does not matter if I am aware or unaware of your presence; you are constantly shaping my life. Whether I have the right knowledge to make the best of you or not, you are always knocking waiting for an answer.
Sometimes, I feel sad because of you, especially, when I decide to follow my heart and the outcome does not work in my favor. I have to dust myself off, get back up, and try again. Then, people have the audacity to say, you should have made a better choice. Really?
Que with her journal
Doing nothing and remaining in bondage is not a choice for me. Other people are irrelevant when making decisions. What some people think are choices are not choices in my book. Sometimes, I have to take crap a little bit longer, to get where I am going. I cannot just quit. When my back is against the wall, something turns on inside of me and drives me right out of whatever it is making me feel uncomfortable. I do not have to make a choice. It is a natural instinct.
Now, when I make a choice and it works in my favor, I am all smiles and leaping with joy. It builds my confidence. However, I never know which choice is going to do what. There are so many to make. Some are relevant to my life; some are for the lives of others.
When I decided to come to Earth, I was a free spirit ready to fly with the birds and bloom like spring flowers. When I arrived, my memory erased. I ran into a wall of limitations. I am not sure if I chose my parents or if I chose to learn whatever it is, I am to learn here on Earth. My purpose is always a question. Did I make a challenge to survive the struggle? What was I thinking?
The media these days posts so much negativity. If I do not have a strong will, they will influence my thoughts, which influences my choices. Did I choose my environment as a kid? Everybody knows you are a product of your environment. If so, why would I do such a thing? Why would I cause myself so much pain? These choices determine the future. I pray my life is predestined because some choices I have no control over. They are things I inherited. I want the best for my life.
They say if you make ‘right’ choices, it will assure you a pleasurable life. I am not sure about all of that. So many distractions influence choices. There are many variables to factor in. Actually, you can learn from all choices. One thing I affirm in my daily practice is Divine right action and Divine right guidance is here and present in my life. I have learned to let go and flow with life. Choices can be tricky. I am learning to trust the Divine, which is always present. I sit and am influenced by the stillness.
LaQuanda is a vibrant spirit moving to the rhythms of life. She was born in Selma Alabama! She believes freedom was given to her as a birth right! LaQuanda has traveled around the sun 31 times! She has invested 10 years in growing one seed. His name is Kwami Malik Ingram! Her grandparents would say LaQuanda is a good gardener because she listens! Gardening relaxes her mind and purifies her soul, drumming and dancing too! LaQuanda is a recent graduate of Geography Information Science at the University of North Alabama in Florence Alabama! She is an explorer and she loves adventure! Among friends she is better known as Que!